I have been struggling with a ferocious terror! I am terrified that I will be killed in
some violent way, either because I fail myself in a potentially dangerous recreational
activity, or because my husband will accidentally kill us in an auto accident, or the
plane Im on will crash, or whatever. The fear only comes up when the physical
elements are pretty dramatic, such as being 30,000 feet in the air, or walking in or
around avalanches or steep snowy mountains, or riding in a fast moving vehicle thats
very close to other vehicles or speeding down curvy mountainous terrain. I dont know
whether the fear is related to the real hazards or perceived hazards or what.
Ive tried "thinking" myself out of this fear, but it hasnt worked
yet. Ive considered managing my life in a way that keeps me out of fearsome
situations, but something inside tells me that that approach wont work. These
terrors began when I was peri-menopausal, about 45 years old. I dont know whether or
not hormones have anything to do with it. Id very much appreciate any help you can
Terrified and Fifty-Four
The fear you are experiencing is a result of the suppression of emotional and physical
pain in violent past-life deaths of your own and loved ones. When your body got closer to
the ages of past deaths, the energy was restimulated, and is now too large a mass to hold
down any longer, even for one as strong as you!
Fear is simply emotional energy, and emotional energy simply needs expression. Many
spiritual people think that it is not OK to express the "negative" emotions such
as fear or anger, so the tendency is to suppress the energy and refuse to feel it fully.
This only makes it stronger so it comes out later, inappropriately. The trick is to allow
safe expression without harming or blaming anyone.
My advice for quick improvement is to allow the fear its full expression. As soon as
you can, when it comes up, get alone or with a supportive friend who understands the
process and let it all out. Shake your body all over, blow out your breath, say,
"Im afraid, I feel scared," over and over, and get to the core of the
feeling. Imagine the very worst thing that could happen and feel the fear energy that is
associated with it. Remember, IT IS ONLY ENERGY THAT NEEDS TO FLOW, and there has to be a
physical action to release it. Keep releasing until you feel much better, maybe even
laughing about how absurd your imagined scenarios are. Do this every day or as often as
necessary to dis-charge.
The long-term solution is to go back into the past lives that cause the restimulation
and retrieve your energy from those times. Then, no matter what happens in the present
life, you will remain in present time instead of being thrust back into the past in
fearful reaction. This requires specialized counseling.
You are also storing a lot of residual trauma in your arms, hands, legs and feet that
is associated with these fears. There is a need for increased communication with your
limbs because you are limiting your energy flow to them, both because of the past pain and
because they have failed you at times, and now you dont trust them. For this, I
recommend rubbing and massaging these parts of your body (mentally and physically), giving
them your spirit-energy, unconditional love, and attention.
Be gentle with yourself and know that you are a vast being, much more powerful than